thank you everyone- thankfully , by friday i was 100% better- maybe the tetracycline?
i did my transfer, and if you have seen my other thread here ( about embryo quality and previous bfns) i was concerned about the embryos that were remaining- before this transfer, i had 9 left that were all good-moderate quality at freezing- two previous FETS with this batch had been bfn, and the embryos have not looked good after thawing- my last FET we thawed 4 to get basically 2 ( a third was trasferred, but was not dividing and highly fragmented), and this FET was disappointing too-
6 were thawed , 4 were transferred, but again, one only contained one live cell, not dividing , and was very fragmented. of the other 3, two were over 20% fragmented , one of those had divided, the other had not, but had live cells. the one i'm hanging my hat on is the only one that looks like it has any potential- it was dividing, and looked clean and symmetrical and had little to no fragmentation.
i am very disappointed frankly, because i somehow thought embryo adoption would be the answer to all of the disappointing ivfs i had with my own eggs- this was a 30 year old donor with twins on the fresh- should have been a slam dunk. i don't know if the lab effed up ( their pg and fet rates are very good, normally) or what happened here. i started with 13 embryos, i have 3 left, and i am feeling really bitter, i can't lie.
anyway, thats the update, thanks a million for being here with me, it helps.